Yesterday when I was....content

This is my version of Yesterday, When I was Mad by Pet Shop Boys.


I guess I'm having a Pet Shop Boys day today. I just listened to a bunch of their songs on YouTube. Such good music, I consider it as a staple in my younger daze.
I use the spelling of daze because that's how I look at my youth. I was in a blurred confusion of lies my peers, parents and teachers were telling me. It's now surprise looking back now, that I can recognize the paths I was corralled into taking. I'd like to say that all of my decisions were my choices but in reflecting on the past and my choices, I can remember some of the choices were not really a choice. I think it was more of survival, taking the easy way out. I was content with it all, not happy not angry.
The best way I handled a tough situation was just walking away. Walking away from issues was easy when I had no vested interest in any outcome. Now, I can't say the same.

I came to this realization, yesterday. I know people in my life that I have just eliminated, cutting off any sort of communication. Simply walking away, that's my M.O. I'm fine with that though, I've always been an outcast ever since I was a kid. I can even remember back to kindergarten feeling this way; Maybe even younger, I was always a loner. Yes, I was shy but it was because I didn't want to be a part of a large group. I've never liked the competitive mentality. It's not natural to challenge another person. I look to the beauty of uniqueness in individuals.

So, what can you bring to the table?