Go-Fund-Me

Like my blog? please give me money....did that sound okay? check out my "Go fund me" link: http://www.gofundme.com/my-MS-therapy-bills I'm asking for a small portion of what I owe but it will get me closer to my end goal. Truth be told, I can pay $1,700 and file for Bankruptcy. Yes, that would stay with me for at least 7yrs or I can slowly try to pull myself out of debt. Live the way I have been since my divorce. The bad part is that I'll continue to incur interest until fully paid. I've wanted to go back to school so maybe if this Go-Fund-Me thing works,pay to those creditors off. Next I will continue to live this way while paying for school. The same monthly amount if not needed to pay for medical debt can then be spent on a degree. I would love to finish my degree in interior design but I'm not sure if the credits I'd earned will transfer. After all, I went to college at an art school so I can barely call it "College" but I do. I'd started fresh out of high school and well, lets just say that I think I've missed a couple of reunions. I hear those are just for people to brag about what they've done. Me, well, I got to 100 on farmville. Seriously though, I have accomplishments but nothing spectacular. I live and dream as I watch the world pass along, the mob mentality on its path. As much as things have changed, it's amazing just how much things stay on an even keel. Case in point, there was..keyword was, an asteroid said to be the "size of three football fields" (I'm sure they meant by Length because football fields are in fact linear and did they mean American football? or everyone else in the world's futbol cuz Americans can under-simplify by assuming there is only one sport called football which is played on a field)So an asteroid passed by our little planet today. The asteroid named 2000 EM26 was never a threat at 2million miles away. An article I read about the event stated how people on twitter were following it. Complete with a hash-tag, #ASTEROID for the chat/comments. Most people thought it was a let down, according to the article. The author did have one thing right. If it was "Interesting" it very well could have ended in tears, that is if one had survived such an "Interesting Event" Luckily for us, it was only a near hit. not near miss. I don't like it when people say "Near Miss" because if it was a "Near Miss" that means..well you almost missed it. instead you hit it. It's a pet peeve of mine. So is,when people, usually news anchors, say things like "7a.m. in the morning" NO KIDDING! A.M. is morning. Speaking of a.m. and morning, how crazy is it that midnight is in the A.M.! So whenever someone asks me if I'm a morning person, I could say, yes, and not be lying. I like to stay up late and I do frequently. Sometimes until after 2 a.m. (as it is for me right now). With these thoughts now nicely seeded into the interwebs and consequently the global consciousness keep in mind these words were mine,don't claim these thoughts as yours. If you do, and someone asks your for further explanation you'll be at a loss.

W0W already 2014 Where have I been?

Well, I am a new person these days. I feel my disability led to my divorce which led to my not wanting to stay in my home with my ex. As that goes, he would say he was going to move out and never did. I could not be present as he brought his love interests to MY HOME! Yes we were divorced but that is not normal adult behavior. I left waiting and hoping he would move out but that did not happen, I was welcomed into another homeless man's life. Naturally a bond and relationship developed. Was it too soon for me? Perhaps, this relationship founded on my depression and need and his tumultuous situation including his kids at one point he was put in jail. I am not sure there was any other route I could have taken. Living as a vagrant,....a vagabond,....a wanderer,...well I prefer Nomad. I have my jeep packed with my personal belongings, a warm blanket, some pillows, a window shade to block out the morning sunlight. I have sunblock, a toothbrush and floss,I always have a supply of feminine hygiene products and I carry a roll of toilet paper cuz you never know. I have my hairbrush, shampoo and conditioner, baby wipes for cleaning in public bathrooms. I prefer the kind that only allow one person at a time so I can really 'shower'. I have deodorant, perfume, body spray and several changes of clothes which I keep as clean as I can until I get to a laundry. I keep my electronics such as my sansa music player, my laptop and cell phone (which I keep losing or having stolen, glad I can keep the same number when I activate a new phone. I get the cheap 'disposable' phones no contract so if I don't have the money for minutes then no big deal.)I even have a Bluetooth for my phone and a camera to document things I see. I have a charger that plugs into the cigarette lighter to keep these items charged when I'm not able to plug them anywhere. I keep my fingernails trimmed and clean. I wear makeup on occasion and my hair in order. I don't smoke but am known to enjoy a draft at a local brew-pub. I love my coffee,just black. Yes, I have a bank account usually just enough to support this luxurious lifestyle. I spend carefully, but I always tip better than I should when I do go places with service staff, including coffee shop Baristas. Who although probably live at home with their parents and make more per hour than I ever did. Why is the tip jar at the register? I just paid, so am I tipping the guy operating the register?! Good job you rang it up, charged me an excessive amount, asked me for the total with tax, put it in the drawer and handed me my change (hopefully the right amount) then said "Here's the tip jar....*smile*" WHY DO I HAVE TO TIP FOR A CUP OF COFFEE! My other more common method of payment is my debit card, then I sign it and hand it back. One time I did have this girl say "Oh, you didn't fill this out." looking at it feeling like an ass I threw $1 down and changed the total, plus my donation. I've done this time and time again, little do they know I need that dollar but something makes me feel bad when I don't tip. If I taste the coffee and it sucks, I just won't go back. I don't complain about something so easy to make but how do they mess it up? Instead these days I am fortunate to be couch surfing and whoever's place I'm at typically has a coffee maker. I provide my own coffee and usually just leave what I was unable to use while staying with them. Overall, I don't think most people know this is how I live. This is the new face of being homeless, I don't have much to my name. At least nothing somebody else can't get newer or better than what I've got. I've run into others in like situations they of course look at it as I do, I can't beat them or join them...so I'll just be a wallflower and live vicariously. I enjoy the comradery of coffee houses, brew pubs, free concerts, fun at campgrounds,local games and even loving to not be bothered while reading at a library. I make things workout with friends or family hoping to be invited in even just for a short stint. It's not that I'm totally lazy, my disability has kept me from working and now with my lapse in work...it looks really bad. With so many able bodies willing to work hard compared to me and at my age it's not that easy. So, I live in denial and convince myself that life is good.