My day today...

My days are pretty much the same, as far as what I do. Putting the title on this it will pretty much apply to any day unless I post something different.

Today I woke up when I heard my husbands alarm go off. It usually scares me for some reason. And not just startled but I feel my heart pound and for a moment I'm terrorized as if I was about to die. Never mind the time that I was sound asleep and he started to wake me up by gently rubbing my leg while he stood next to the bed. Oh my gosh I was so scared and I even screamed and the worst part is that I for a moment had no idea where I was and who he was. I don't know what that's all about. But that wasn't today.
After his alarm woke me up, I clutched my chest thinking I was having a heart attack.
I finally calmed down and was angry at myself for this reaction. I wonder when this will stop, I wonder also if this is somehow related to my medications and if so which one.
After climbing out of bed, and it is a climb since the bed is higher than your basic bed. (it comes up to about 3') I then headed off to make my breakfast which is always a challenge for me. I made my oatmeal because it's easy to microwave it. 2min and 22seconds, that's easy for me to hit 2-2-2 start. That's pretty much what I have everyday but today I 'spiced it up' I also had an English muffin. I don't eat much these days because it's so hard for me to make anything. This took me about 30min to prepare believe it or not. I guess this can explain why I've dropped down to about 115 when I used to weigh 150. Yeah I was on the thick side but I also worked out a lot (daily) and I Rollerbladed or biked. I really miss working out, my quality of life has diminished;My muscles atrophied as a result but I still have the nice definition still visible.
I try to at least lift my 10lb free weight which I do with ease. It's the squats while holding the weight that is tough. I am determined to start working out again and I know one day it will happen. Plus working out does help keep me happy and this has been proven scientifically.
I've also been stuck in my industrial music bubble for the last week and have truthfully been trapped in since high school I've only added music but I always go back to my love. Even Cocteau Twins who I've also loved since high school too doesn't give me that same energy that listening to Front Line Assembly gives me, I guess it's true that I'm a rivet head at heart.

After my start to the day I pretty much watch the news, the Bonnie Hunt Show and Deal or No Deal. I'll have lunch, today I had a hamburger, broccoli, home made pasta salad and some fruit. All of this is prepared in the beginning of the week and I just take it out and nuke it. Yay Hubby.
(no dinner)
That's about it. Then I go on the internet. So, my day will be the same tomorrow, I may even live it up and have that English muffin again.