My group on FaceBook (FB) and lunch with Nance

Well, I spend a lot of time on FB, specifically on FarmVille (FV). I started doing what's termed
Horse Breeding. It's fun and it's a way for me to get to know people on a more personal/community level. I had the idea to start a group of 'Horse Breeders' and people who like to collect the foals
that we breed.I shared this idea with a fellow horse breeder and she was anxious to learn more. I showed her where the "make a group" link is and she loved it.
I made my group and began to add my friends/FV neighbors. One hour later, I noticed I was added to her group and had a lot of the same people. That was confusing for people, they don't want to toggle back and forth between two similar groups.
I notified people how I was planning on deleting my group. Graciously bowing out so to speak. This was frowned on by people, they didn't mind and it was pointed out to me that while similar groups, there are differences. Foal posting happen in that group while mine is more of a group conversation, some ideas shared and also doing Co-Op farming. This allows us extra points in the game as well as a prize if we finish in a certain amount of time.
One of the girls in my group suggested a specific Co-Op because of the limited and valued prize. (The Grape Sheep) She even suggested the start day/time. I was on board with the idea. When it came time, I allowed her to start it. This is where my plan backfires, most of the people are not her neighbor; Therefore, they can't see the Co-Op.
Sadly, bowing out graciously twice backfired. So, lesson learned. I hope. I will be aggressive for what is rightfully allotted to me. I have just intended for people to move up in the game and know that I helped them. That is what I strive for. Why did it fail? Why did I fail? We may not even win the Co-Op because of it. :( I'll let you know.

That's where I'm at...I liked being a manager and I'm good at it. I didn't realize that so many people out there enjoy being told what to do. I handle it well and I handle it compassionately. This is the way I handle life.

I went to lunch with my friend Nancy (Nance) today, it was great. At one point during our conversation, she asked me a question that actually put a new thought in my mind. She asked me, "Do you think because of your positive demeanor and tone that people are intimidated by you?"
WOW at first I kept saying and denying "Oh, No how is this intimidating?" Then I thought, hmm. Maybe. This could explain a lot of my difficulties with managers, coworkers, nursing staff and the list goes on I'm sure.
It is so odd to see yourself through another's eyes so accurately. Even if that's not true, I can understand how people might be thinking...they themselves are not doing so well that they are not happy. I must be doing something so profoundly above them with better understanding and purpose.
It's that idea of what others see in me at first impression. I will talk and share with anyone who asks, my life is not all kitty-kats and unicorns. I am just an original true epiphany realizing intellectual. I see the world not as it is but, the nature of things and people. I am intimidated by unnatural things and I steer clear of those things. Why do I want those sort of concepts dragging me down. I have found at times it is easier to just fall into depression and play the blame game. Muscle up, accept your faults and once you do that, they tend to dissolve.
It takes some deep soul searching, change of habits and don't lie to yourself.
I'm done for today, I have a farm to keep up on.
Thank you for reading.