My Sorrow

I am overcome with sorrow. Not depression but I am in Mourning.
Mourning for friends and family lost. I grieve also for my own shortfalls.
Not the physical or even mental but spiritual shortcomings.
I am deeply spiritual, that is something I have always shared with people.
I do not show it outwardly as those in the "bible belt" do but it is just as strong
if not stronger than some of them.
I have realized that being in the throes of work immersed in the daily chaos of life, has all to blame for my lack of spiritual projection. I cannot continue with work at this stage of my condition (MS) and I am thankful to God for that. He has removed me from a life of stress and adversaries that I do not have a place for in my life, not now, not ever.
Take it to heart that if people do not hear from me, it's because the didn't listen to me.

-n