you are loved

I just woke up and got going today around noon.I fixed myself a bowl of oatmeal with protein powder, I started a pot of coffee and settled myself on the couch. I then started up my laptop with the intention of finding out what happened to my BF Christiane. where are u Hun?

Instead, I saw a friend confirmation on face book from a Cocteau Friend. I followed it to comment on her page to find that a dear mutual friend has passed. RIP Leesa.She found she had breast cancer which then moved into her brain. I am fortunate to have called her Friend and know she is finally through fighting. You are in my heart Leesa

It seems that each year that passes I have had some monumental tragedy.this is not as horrific as my mother telling me she was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer in Aug. 2008 then passing in May of 2009. I'm not even passed the mourning of that when now I am faced with the death of a friend. This no doubt adds to my fatigue, since early 2008 my ms has gotten worse and worse. I find the simplest of tasks like getting dressed is difficult. Usually I don't unless I have to venture off to the doctor's.
Sadness does effect my MS in ways that most don't realize.
So, while I might seem like I'm upbeat, I am truly sad with my plight.
I thank our father in heaven for having chosen me as one he trusts can deal with this in the right way. My lesson is that I will be tested by him just as Job was tested and I am thankful for that. I am not sad for myself but for the others affected by these circumstances and I pray that they will find comfort in the Lord, our refuge.