Monday, February 8, 2010

do you take a 'time out'?

I ask because I have found with our my TV and no I'm not able to enjoy too many other physical activities. :(
I have accepted this time to simply just take a 'time out' and think about all of the things that my very hectic work life just wouldn't make room for.
I realize that I have done this all of my life from studing for tests back in my school days, learning lines in a play, training for a job, working of course , paying bills, having a social life caring for others, family activities and well I'm certain you all can relate and some of you are thinking of your own lives as you sigh with an eye roll in agreement and relief.
I am asking to know, am I the only person who has this issue in recentrting yourself? Some may refer to it as meditation or daydreaming but whatever term you use I think it is overlooked.
I have been just relaxing and letting my trail off in its own direction and all I can say is wow to the revelations I have just pushed off for "important things"

These ideas and concepts that I've had are at first elementary like what makes me laugh or what makes me cry? After thinking on this and other things I do examine at a deeper and more meaningful level. Maybe this is what monks have been doing for years and years.

As smple as it sounds it has definately given me a sort of recharge not only with my self but also my outward look at others. I am still rooted deply in my old habits of trying to find answers through any other outlet except me. I have all of my own answers and to me this explains why I tend to get upset with people who impose their ideas unsolicited on me. As cruel as it may be I prefer to try to make a go of it on my own. Just like a baby bird taking its first flight there are no training wheels and no parachutes just the confidence that it will know what to do. I think that I have been strangled by other peoples insecurities in me which is actually hurtful and makes me ask what have I done to give the impression that I need or want help.

Just imagine if we lived in a world where noone could think for themselves or make mistakes and always ran to someone for their next step and people that are like that and cultivated in such a way are living up to the victem mentality. I am not a victem simply because I may take a different road than others I am still forging ahead and that's what matters.

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